Fael Aisling, Muileach Uirisg

Aura Photography Results

2009-07-26T23:42:39Z

<<<CENTER>>>
TURQUOISE
Generous, Peaceful

<<<THROAT>>>
BLUE
Deep Peace

RIGHT: BLUE LEFT: BLUE WHITE
Deep Peace Spiritually Focused

SOLAR PLEXUS: LIGHT BLUE
Peaceful, Spiritual

SEXUAL: BLUE
Deep Peace

ROOT: BLUE
Deep Peace

RIGHT SIDE (EXPRESSION, Normally side for OUTFLOW/WISDOM) "BLUE" The color on the right side is traditionally the energy being expressed. The vibrational frequency most likely seen or felt by others around you. Many times your friends will think that this is the energy that you are made of. However, it is what you are putting out to the world. We gain knowledge through experience and knowledge is changed to wisdom by sharing it with others (teaching).

Blue right: The world sees you as calm and peaceful. You have a generally quiet and contemplative nature which has a pacifying effect on others. Unification and a sense of belonging is important to you. Blue represents loyalty, depth of feeling, relaxed sensitivity, empathy, and an artistic nature. People see you as the calm of the untroubled sea.

CENTER (Crown/Pineal &Third Eye/Pituitary combined, EXPERIENCE) "TURQUOISE" The color seen over your head is what you experience for yourself now. It's the color that would best describe you. If the color is high it could mean aspirations or what you wish to be. A dream is a thought you can make a reality, by just believing. Like healing the body, dreams and healing techniques work better if they believed in. The Crown vibrates to violet or white color, with the sound or mantra "AUM(om)" or note/key of "E" and it's element is Space (Ether), Acceptance. The Third Eye vibrates to indigo color, with the sound or mantra "HAM-KSHAM" or the note/key of "D#" and its element is Ether, outflow. The area angling out and up from your head is what you are striving to achieve, with the further away from the head being in the more distant future.

Turquoise Center: You have a compassionate, sensitive yet practical nature. You are a natural teacher, counselor, health worker and parent. You know how to help, encourage, and nurture others with equal amounts of firmness and affection. Presently, you may find yourself in a "healing" phase, needing time to be alone, rest and recuperate. Self healing and nurturing is essential for people who are constantly giving to others.

LEFT SIDE (Acceptance, Normally the side of INPUT/KNOWLEDGE, FUTURE) "BLUE WHITE" The color on the left side is normally the vibration coming into your being. The closer it is to you, the sooner it will be felt. A few moments, hours or as long as a few months. You draw to you what you are, or what you see in others you have in you.

Blue/white left: Blue is the color of peace, meditation, intuition and tranquility and white is the color of spirituality, so you are entering a time now in your life of intense beauty, inner peace and oneness with the divine. A beautiful healing time is coming to you and those around you. You will be able to act as a clear conduit for spiritual healing energy to flow through you to heal yourself and others. You will be working on developing a close connection with the creator.

THROAT (Thyroid, communication, relating) "BLUE" The color on the throat is traditionally the energy being expressed. The vibrational frequency mostly likely seen or felt by others around you. Many times your friends will think this the energy that you are made of, However, it is what you are putting out to the world. The throat and thyroid vibrate to the color Blue and the sound or mantra "u" (as in blue) or the note/key of "D" and it's element is the sky (blue) ether.

Blue throat: You most desire to express yourself in harmonious, peaceful and beautiful ways. You may wish to express yourself artistically, or spiritually. You have the ability to articulate your deepest feelings and to experience bliss, wholeness and connection with the divine through meditation.

HEART (Thymus, incentive/drive, empathy issues of the heart, love) "BLUE" The color of the heart is normally the vibration coming into your being. As the colors around you get closer to you the sooner they will be felt. A few moments, hours or as long as a few months. The Heart vibrates to the color green and the sound or mantra "YAM" or the note/key of "C". Its element is Air. When the heart is balanced its color will shift from green to teal for healing and growth.

Blue heart: You desire peace and quiet, time to be alone, to rest, meditate, or simply daydream. This is a time when you wish to recoup and gather your energies. Your whole being is hungry for a vacation, relaxation or deep meditation. Inner peace is your goal at this point in time.

SOLAR PLEXUS (Digestive system, Self Identification) "LIGHT BLUE" The color on the solar plexus is normally the center vibration of your being. The Solar Plexus is associated with power, money, and called the "money pot" by the Hindus. The is the center of self esteem, and ego. It vibrates to the color yellow; the sound or mantra "RAM" or the note/key of "A#"; and its element is Fire. Identification is knowing whom we are and what we came to do and learn this life time.

Light blue solar plexus: White is the color of spirituality and blue is the color of peace, meditation, intuition and tranquility, so you are experiencing a time now in your life of intense beauty, inner peace and oneness with the divine. A beautiful healing time is flowing through you. Others feel and respond to the depth of your healing presence. From the very center of your being you resonate harmony and balance.

SEXUAL (Reproductive organs, Adrenal gland, Personal Needs) "BLUE" This energy center of the body is about creativity, sociability, ones emotional life and sexuality. Sex is a profound source of creativity, joy and pleasure which is nurturing, healing and bonding. It is often considered sinful by most manipulative religions and from this aspect can be a source of guilt, fear and shame. When the energy in this area is balanced, the person will probably have a healthy and positive attitude toward basic love. The sexual center is the position from which one reaches out, expands and relates to others. Needs are the basic things we all must have to exist, food, water, shelter, love. The reproductive/adrenal systems vibrate to the color orange and the sound or mantra "VAM" or the note/key of "A". Its element is water.

Blue sex: At this point in time you are experiencing deep inner peace and tranquility in your life. You want your relationships to be equally as peaceful. Above all, you want to create harmony and ease in your environment. You may be on vacation or just experiencing a "time out" to relax and gather your energies. If you meditate you may be able to easily access blissful states of consciousness. Your spirituality, rest and peace are your main focus now. The last you want or need is romantic drama, and emotionally charged encounters. You are mature and wise as to what love really is. You allow yourself and others the freedom to gently be.

ROOT (Coccyx or tailbone, Personal Wants) "BLUE" The color of the root area is traditionally the energy of the physical plane and material reality. People with strong energy in this center usually have a red color here and have good survival skills. This is also the center of manifestation. If you are trying to succeed in the world either by making more money, establishing a business, or accumulating possessions, you will be focusing your energy here. This is also the place from which passion flows; the source of power and ego development. Wants are those things you would like to have above the "needs" like a million dollars and no where special to spend it. The Root vibrates to the color red and the sound or mantra "LAM" or the note/key of "G", it's element is Earth.

Blue root: The world sees you as calm and peaceful. You have a generally quiet and contemplative nature which has a pacifying effect on others. Unification and a sense of belonging are important to you. Blue represents loyalty, depth of feeling, relaxed sensitivity, empathy and an artistic nature. People see you as the calm of the untroubled sea. You have extraordinary patience and are able to solve the most chaotic of situations peacefully and quickly. You are a natural diplomat and generous to a tee.

Life is actually pretty good, at the moment.

2008-10-03T04:17:10Z

There were days when I wondered if I'd ever say that again,and mean it. :) But here I am, in my own apartment, peacefully talking to Lysa and Aimy and David and Josh, and not so peacefully contemplating the taking of a fourth village in Tribal Wars. It's war, I can't be peaceful about it, lol...the only thing I'm waiting on is whether I am to go ahead and take an enemy village that I was originally planning on, or if I should take a village belonging to an inactive member of the tribe, to keep that village in the tribe. When the answer comes back in the tribal forum what they want me to do, then I'll do it. I wish my space bar didn't stick so bad on my keyboard, but that's just a random thought. (and one that will repeat itself every time the keyboard sticks) Things are going very well with Tim, he's going to come and see the new apt when he gets back from Florida. That's going to be really cool. :) Well, back to my warlike pursuits on TW, let's go get that village. :D

Sims 2 house, 2nd floor.

2008-09-25T06:02:01Z

This is the main hallway on the second floor.

This is the ballroom-facing the mirror.

This is the ballroom-facing the French doors.

This is the studio where portraits of the lord and lady of the house will soon be painted.

This is the ladies parlor and sewing room. -First view as you come through the door.

This is the same parlor, different view.

This is the billiards room. One of the guests stayed late to finish a game. :)

This is the school room for the children.

This is the back hallway on the second floor.

This is the back stairwell on the second floor, leading up to the servant's quarters.

That's all of the second floor. third floor in another post.

Pics from my Sims 2 House

2008-09-25T05:45:29Z

This is the house from the outside.

This is the stable and carriage house.

This is the entry hall.

This is the front parlor-first view

This is the same front parlor-second view.

This is the back hallway, leading to the study, the kitchen, the back stairs for the servants, and the formal dining room. It is mostly used by the servants.

This is the study-first view.

This is the study-second view.

This is the kitchen and back stairwell...someone left dirty dishes lying around.

This is the main hallway, for family and guests. It leads to the library and to the formal dining room, and to a small guest bathroom.

This is the guest bathroom.

This is the library.

This is the formal dining room.

That's all the first floor, I'll do the second floor in a second post, because this one will be too long if I don't. :)

Holy JUmping Insects, Batman!!!!

2008-08-09T13:17:18Z

Ugh...if there's one thing in life I'm not brave about, it's bugs, lol...well, spiders are ok if they just sit there and don't bother anyone. But this morning there was something in the bathroom, on the edge of the tub and without my contacts in I couldn't tell what it was. Just that it had a lot of legs. I also discovered that it jumps, that's as far as I wanted to go in my observation. It was headed toward me with a single minded determination that I found more than a little alarming. So I dropped my towel on it to confuse it, maybe it will think it's dark and go to sleep...and left a can of bug spray and a note that says "Under the pink towel is a large jumping kind of insect. Possibly a giant cricket. I don't know what it is, really, but it's ugly. Anyone who is brave and kills it has my thanks" So far, no takers...wonder who will be my champion? :D

still awake...oh well

2008-07-07T06:17:21Z

I've been reading a really good book, it's become one of my favorites, so I keep re reading it. It's one of the books in the Ender's Game series, called Ender's Shadow. The first book, Ender's Game, is about Andrew "Ender" Wiggin, a child who is sent to a Battle School in space to be trained to command ships to fight the enemies of earth. He and the other children in Battle School are military geniuses. The book Ender's Shadow tells the same story in parallel, from the viewpoint of the smallest and youngest of Ender's "army". The little boy, called Bean, because of his small size, is if anything smarter and more complex than Ender as a character. It doesn't show as much in Ender's Game, that he's going to be anything special, or more special than any of the others, but in this book there is a lot revealed about him that is just amazing. What I particularly liked, was watching his character develop throughout the book, the changes that appear so gradually that by the end of the story, he seems almost to be a different person, but is still recognizable as himself, only more so. I've put in a couple of paragraphs from both the beginning and the end of the story to show what I mean.

Excerpt from Ender's Shadow (in chapter 5, Bean is 4 years old at this point)

Sister Carlotta shed tears when she told Bean that it was time for him to leave. Bean shed none.

"I understand that you're afraid, Bean, but don't be." she said. "You'll be safe there, and there's so much to learn. The way you drink down knowledge, you'll be very happy there in no time. So you won't really miss me at all."

Bean blinked. What sign had he given that made her think he was afraid? Or that he would miss her?

He felt none of these things. When he first met her, he might have been prepared to feel something for her. She was kind. She fed him. She was keeping him safe, giving him a life.

But then he found Pablo the janitor, and there was Sister Carlotta, stopping Bean from talking to the man who had saved him long before she did. Nor would she tell him anything that Pablo had said, or anything she had learned about the clean place.

From that moment, trust was gone. Bean knew that whatever Sister Carlotta was doing, it wasn't for him. She was using him. He didn't know what for. It might even be something he would have chosen to do himself. But she wasn't telling him the truth. She had secrets from him. The way Achilles kept secrets.

So during the months that she was his teacher, he had grown more and more distant from her. Everything she taught, he learned--and much that she didn't teach as well. He took every test she gave him, and did well; but he showed her nothing he had learned that she hadn't taught him.

Of course life with Sister Carlotta was better than life on the street--he had no intention of going back. But he did not trust her. He was on guard all the time. He was as careful as he had ever been back in Achilles family. Those brief days at the beginning, when he wept in front of her, when he let go of himself and spoke freely--that had been a mistake that he would not repeat. Life was better, but he wasn't safe, and this wasn't a home.

Her tears were real enough, he knew. She really did love him, and would really miss him when he left. After all, he had been a perfect child, compliant, quick, obedient. To her, that meant he was "good." To him, it was only a way of keeping his access to food and learning. He wasn't stupid.

Why did she assume he was afraid? Because she was afraid for him. Therefore there might indeed be something to fear. he would be careful.

And why did she assume he would miss her? Because she would miss him, and she could not imagine that what she was feeling, he might not feel as well. She had created an imaginary version of him. Like the games of Let's Pretend that she tried to play with him a couple of times. Harking back to her own childhood, no doubt, growing up in a house where there was always enough food. Bean didn't have to pretend things in order to exercise his imagination when he was on the street. Instead he had to imagine his plans for how to get food, for how to insinuate himself into a crew, for how to survive when he knew he seemed useless to everyone. He had to imagine how and when Achilles would decide to act against him for having advocated that Poke kill him. He had to imagine danger around every corner, a bully ready to seize every scrap of food. Oh, he had plenty of imagination. But he had no interest at all in playing Let's Pretend.

That was her game. She played it all the time. Let's pretend that Bean is a good little boy. Let's pretend that Bean is the son that this nun can never have for real. Let's pretend that when Bean leaves, he'll cry--that he's not crying now because he's too afraid of this new school, this journey into space, to let his emotions show. Let's pretend that Bean loves me.

And when he understood this, he made a decision. It will do no harm to me if she believes all this. And she wants very much to believe it. so why not give it to her? After all Poke let me stay with the crew even though she didn't need me, because it would do no harm. It's the kind of thing Poke would do.

So Bean slid off his chair, and walked around the table to Sister Carlotta, and put his arms around her as far as they would reach. She gathered him up onto her lap and held him tight, her tears flowing into his hair. He hoped her nose wasn't running. But he clung to her as long as she clung to him, letting go only when she let go of him. It was what she wanted from him, the only payment that she had ever asked of him. For all the meals, the lessons, the books, the language, for his future, he owed her no less than to join her in this game of Let's Pretend.

Then the moment passed. He slid off her lap. She dabbed at her eyes. Then she rose, took his hand, and let him out to the waiting soldiers, to the waiting car.

***************

I was fascinated by the working of his mind, the way he analyzed everything. He does that pretty much during the whole book, giving some really interesting insights into the way people might think, or what might motivate them. In this part, and through a lot of the first part of the book and some of the middle, he is almost completely in his head. Everything is done for its practicality, and he never really loses that intellectual way of viewing things, but as he goes on, he begins to react in ways that are more in keeping with human behavior and eventually starts to be "more" human, to reveal a greater depth of understanding and feeling than would be expected of most adults, let alone a child.

2nd excerpt from Ender's Shadow (chapter 23, Bean is 6 years old)

On those ships, thought Bean, there are individual men who gave up homes and families, the world of their birth, in order to cross a great swatch of the galaxy and make war on a terrible enemy. Somewhere along the way they're bound to understand that Ender's strategy requires them all to die. Perhaps they already have. And yet they obey and will continue to obey the orders that come to them. as in the famous Charge of the Light Brigade, these soldiers give up their lives, trusting that their commanders are using them well. While we sit safely here in these simulator rooms, playing an elaborate computer game, they are obeying, dying so that all of humankind can live.

And yet we who command them, we children in these elaborate game machines, have no idea of their courage, their sacrifice. We cannot give them the honor they deserve, because we don't even know they exist.

Except for me.

There sprang into Bean's mind a favorite scripture of Sister Carlotta's. Maybe it meant so much to her because she had no children. She told Bean the story of Absalom's rebellion against his own father, King David. In the course of a battle, Absalom was killed. When they brought the news to David, it meant victory, it meant that no more of his soldiers would die. His throne was safe. His life was safe. But all he could think about was his son, his beloved son, his dead boy.

Bean ducked his head, so his voice would be heard only by the men under his command. And then, for just long enough to speak, he pressed the override that put his voice into the ears of all the men of that distant fleet. Bean had no idea how his voice would sound to them; would hear his childish voice, or were the sounds distorted, so they would hear him as an adult, or perhaps as some metallic, machinelike voice? No matter. In some form the men of that distant fleet would hear his voice transmitted faster than light, God knows how.

"O my son Absalom," Bean said softly, knowing for the first time the kind of anguish that could tear such words from a man's mouth. "My son, my son Absalom. Would God I could die for thee, O Absalom, my son. My sons!"

He had paraphrased it a little, but God would understand. Or if he didn't, Sister Carlotta would.

*************

Well, anyway, those might not have been the parts that other people thought were most interesting if they read it, but that's ok. The whole book was good. gah...it's 1:15 and I'm still up...have to go to bed. I'll have to post again at some point to actually say things that are going on in life, but it can wait. I've pretty much used up my quota of mental energy for the night. :)

Wow...

2008-04-06T14:14:04Z

I haven't been back here for a while, actually just came back to write to Katie and Will and say thank you for my birthday gift. I didn't realize how much things have changed over the last few months. They have changed a lot, and all for the better. I've only been working one job, for one thing, ever since December. That has had multiple good effects, one being of course that I am not exhausted and stressed out all the time, so my blood pressure is under control and I've lost a significant amount of weight. I feel so much better and am more enthusiastic about life now, it's like being a different person. Also, since I've had more time to myself, I've had the opportunity to make some really good new friends, they don't have livejournal, so they wouldn't notice me mentioning their names here, lol, but just for my records when I come back here again in years to come, I will say that Pasi Mantynen and Ma'Moun Faried Ibrahim have been added to my list of closest friends, hope they stay that way always. :) I'm considering dating again, I have met someone who so far is really really nice. We'll see how that goes. Maybe in future years when I go back and read this, then I'll be able to say "look, I wrote this about you on this day", and we'll both laugh about it. Maybe. Life is full of possibilities at the moment, and all of them good. I'm planning to move back to Texas in slightly less than six months now, it's going to be great. Right now, it's only a week left till RT, can't wait to get there!

Need to do Christmas shopping...

2007-12-10T02:30:30Z

Hopefully Thursday I'll get around to it. I need to know some ideas though, on what people want. Katie, call me please and let me know if there is a wish list somewhere for you and Will.

I should be asleep right about now

2007-11-17T04:43:21Z

Well, I'm in a much better mood than I was the last couple of times I posted. It was bound to happen sometime. I'm quite reconciled to the fact that Chuck and Kaitlyn are going to be parents, it just took a while to get used to. There are differing opinions on how/why it happened; Chuck's mom believes that Kaitlyn stopped taking her pills on purpose so that she would get pregnant, because she had been saying she wanted to have a baby and Chuck was saying they should wait. Chuck told me that he doesn't believe she stopped taking the pills, just that an antibiotic she was taking at the same time might have interfered with the pill's effectiveness. I've come to the conclusion that it really doesn't matter either way, because I'm going to be leaving at the end of next fall anyway. I wonder if they will be married before then?

It's tempting to keep playing around online instead of going to bed like I ought to do, but I am no stranger to the fact that no matter how wide awake I am before I go to sleep, because it's when I have to wake up that I notice how tired I actually am. So, it's off to sleep with me, and hope for a good day tomorrow.

Beowulf ---Katie you have to read this, it's hilarious!

2007-11-17T04:31:51Z

Beowulf

by Rathflaed DuNoir
The Black Bard of Meridies
mka: Stephen R. Melvin

See Grendel. See Grendel eat. Eat, Grendel, eat. Grendel is eating a few Danish for breakfast. Grendel especially likes the ones with the yellow coating on top. This is good because there are so many of them. Yummy!

See Hrothgar. He is sad. Sad, sad, sad. His warriors are leaving. They are sad because Grendel has eaten many of their friends. They do not want to play with Grendel anymore because Grendel is mean.

Hrothgar is also sad because his food is almost gone. Grendel eats the cows and pigs and horsies, too. Grendel is very hungry. Eat, Grendel, eat.

Hrothgar is also sad because his wife will not stop complaining. Whine, wife, whine. Hrothgar has tried to stop listening to her for three days now. Drink, Hrothgar, drink. Hrothgar is almost out of mead. Poor Hrothgar.

See Beowulf. He is big and strong and handsome. He has long viking braids and pointy horns on his hat and a really big sword. Ooh, Beowulf, ooh! He is sailing to Denmark to visit Hrothgar. Sail, Beowulf, sail. He does not know that Hrothgar is almost out of mead. Poor Beowulf.

Beowulf likes to sail. Beowulf likes to drink even more. Poor Beowulf. When he gets to Denmark, there is only enough mead left for one feast. Poor Beowulf. Poor Hrothgar. Poor warriors. Poor Grendel. Beowulf is very mad. Mad, mad, mad.

Beowulf vows to slay Grendel. Vow, Beowulf, vow. He promises to do many great feats. He swears to return with Grendel's head. Drink, Beowulf, drink.

Beowulf is lying very still. Is he waiting to surprise Grendel? No, he is not waiting to surprise Grendel. Is he meditating? No, he is not meditating. Is he practicing an Arcane magical ritual involving a lawn chair, six milk bottles and a tuning fork? No, he is unconscious. Won't he be surprised when he wakes up and they tell him about his promises? Won't he be happy to know that he has a quest? Won't he feel grand when the warriors cheer him? No, Beowulf will not feel grand for awhile. He has a headache. Poor Beowulf. Please stop cheering warriors.

O see the castle. It is very quiet. Is it quiet because everyone is afraid of Grendel? No it is not quiet becaude everyone is afraid of Grendel. Is it quiet because everyone is afraid of Beowulf? Yet, it is because everyone is afraid of Beowulf. Beowulf has had a very bad headache for three days. Last night, Beowulf's head hurt so bad that he was very mad. Mad, mad, mad. Grendel came over to play and made too much noise. Beowulf was very upset. Beowulf was so upset that he ripped Grendel's arm off and hung it over the door. Poor Grendel. Poor warriors. Smile at Beowulf. Just do it quietly.

O see the feast hall. It is bright and cheery. There is food on the tables and mead in the horns and a great big arm over the door. See the feasters. They are singing and laughing and drinking. Are they happy that Grendel is dead? Yes, they are happy that Grendel is dead. Are they happy that they can laugh and sing and play again? Yes, they are they happy that they can laugh and sing and play again. But most of all they are happy that there is more mead. Drink, Beowulf, drink.

O see Hrothgar. He is happy. Happy, happy, happy.

Is he happy that Grendel is dead? Is he happy that there is more mead? Yes, but he is mostly happy because his wife has stopped complaining. Smile, Hrothgar, smile.

O see Grendel's mother. She is sad. Sad, sad, sad. Is she sad because Grendel is gone? Is she sad because her other children never call? Is she sad because the Angels are losing again? Yes, she is sad because of all these things. But she is mostly sad because she won't get any more mother's day presents. This makes her mad. Mad, mad, mad.

She gets so mad that she decides to have some Danish for dessert. That is silly. Everyone knows that you are supposed to have Danish for breakfast. Silly, silly, silly.

In fact it is so silly that we think that Grendel's mother may have had something besides food for dinner. We think that Grendel's mother may have been drinking. Just like Beowulf.

O see Beowulf. Now that there is mead again he is drinking some more. Drink, Beowulf, drink. When Grendel's mother comes to the feast, Beowulf has already drunk quite a bit. So has Grendel's mother. He thinks she is the most beautiful woman in the world and makes a pass at her. Pass, Beowulf, pass. She is caught off guard and says no. Tease, monster, tease. Beowulf tries again. She leaves and he goes home with her. Grendel's mother was never heard from again. Beowulf was very quiet about the whole situation. Quiet, quiet, quiet.

THE END.

"The Seeker-The Dark Is Rising" the movie

2007-10-07T01:31:22Z

We went to see it today, me, chuck's mom, and the kids (Ryan, Michael, and Jesse) It turned out to be really good, but it didn't stay with the book at all. What they did keep from the book, they changed and rearranged, and they left out a lot, and a lot of what they put in didn't happen at all. Still, I would recommend it as a good movie for anyone to watch. I enjoyed it. Afterwards, talking about how the book differed from the movie, I got Ryan and Michael determined to read the whole series. I love it when I convert people, lol....argh, my stomach hurts, I wish whoever was in the bathroom would get out so I could have it.

um...I thought this was a day off???

2007-10-05T00:34:59Z

It started out pretty good, I'm not sure where I lost it...if I had to create a journal of it...

7:30-ish a.m. Got up and walked to get some exercise

8-something or other a.m. Showered and dressed

somewhere around 9: started laundry and put all the dishes that people had left on the counter in the dishwasher.

about 20 minutes later: got online and played around a bit

not sure when, but it's still morning: started to play the Sims 2

Shortly after beginning to play Sims: Chuck came home, fixed breakfast for everyone, I let him turn my game off so he could listen to winamp while he was cooking.

During breakfast: agreed that it would be fun to have a "movie marathon" watching the Lord of the Rings trilogy.

Directly after agreeing to the movies, agreed to go along on some errands.

After breakfast (probably around 10 or 10:30): preparations for errands began. These included: Chuck-put the seats back in the van, and move the van into a more accessible position for his mom to get into. Me: help mom with putting her boot brace on, get my shoes on, move my car out of the way of the van. All of us-get mom, the wheelchair, and ourselves into the van so we can go. I believe we finally left around noon.

12:07 p.m. I notice the time and think there's still plenty of the day left, so that's ok. We have just started our journey.

12:45 (essentially) we arrive at Soulard Market. This is my first time to see Soulard Market and I am suitably impressed, because I love old buildings.

12:55 p.m. Am slightly less impressed as I begin to realize that the historical authenticity of the building means no air conditioning. It's still pretty cool though, no, not cool as in comfortable temperature, just cool.

Sometime while still there: Have a funnel cake for the first time. It's pretty good, Chuck's mom said it wasn't as good as it was supposed to be, the lady cooked it too long. I said I supposed that meant it wasn't supposed to be crunchy, and she said no, it wasn't.

1:00 p.m. left Soulard Market, thanked the Powers That Be for air conditioning when we got into the van. Beginning to think I'm not so over my cold as I thought I was.

Sometime close to 2:00 p.m. Arrived at Wal-Mart. Didn't buy anything, but I wanted to.

2:30-ish, or sometime close to 3:00 left Wal-Mart and headed to Aldi's (small grocery store) to "pick up a few things"

3-something began shopping at Aldi's.

Some time later, still at Aldi's, the grocery cart now weighs as much as I do.

Still at Aldi's, I can't see over the top of the cart.

Checking out: the grocery total comes to over $150 and I'm glad it's not me paying for it, but I know it's going to be me carrying it in and putting it away.

4:00 p.m. finally put everything into the van and are leaving for home.

5:00 p.m. or shortly after: arrive at home, and begin removing things and people from the van

5:30-ish: Finally done putting things away, and flop down on the couch, after taking headache meds. I never want to move again.

6-something or other: am sent to pick up Chinese food. What the heck, it's being bought for me, I'm not complaining.

7-something: finished eating, can get on computer again. Check email, and discover that I actually don't have enough energy to play the Sims.

Present time: (7:35) debating with self on whether to go on to bed, or to stay up and watch "The Illusionist" which is one of my most favorite movies. I think I'm going to bed.

10 Things to Say (got this from Lysa)

2007-10-04T02:58:51Z

List up to ten things you've wanted to say to ten people. Do not state who they are.

Mine might seem a bit random, but that's because anyone who is actually here to read them is someone I talk to anyway, so I just go ahead and tell them what I have to say. Also, it may cover more than one person at a time, or a group of people.

1. Sometimes the best revenge is to live well. So there.

2. I would never chosen to be away from you, I fought to keep us together, and lost, but I never stopped caring, and I never stopped asking about you. The years of your life that I have lost are gone forever, it's almost as if you died because I can never get you back the way you were then, but who you have become is someone I will be proud to know when the time is right.

3. What, exactly, were you trying to accomplish by that? I don't think it worked, anyway.

4. What part of "it's really ok to tell me the truth" don't you understand? Ok, we'll do it your way, you can lie, and I'll pretend I'm dumb enough to believe every word, and you'll know I'm only pretending to believe you, and that's sort of the same thing as telling the truth, isn't it? Now I have a headache.

5. Thank you, you were right about everything!

6. No, it's ok, I've already got one.

7. Your mother doesn't work here, clean up your mess!

8. You made me a part of your family when I was far away from mine, you visited me in the hospital, listened to my problems, and you have become my friend. I will miss you.

9. Friends are the family you choose.

10. I'd like to blame you for what I am today, but if I do, then I also give you credit for what I am as well. You made me less trusting, but more perceptive. Fighting you wore away my emotions, but also made me stronger. Your insistence that I had no real value only made me strive harder to prove that I did, and I did prove it--to myself. The life lessons I learned from you were harsh, but they shaped me like a potter shapes his clay, and though I did go through the fire, I came out again as something--someone---worth having.

Day off!!!

2007-09-27T14:27:26Z

I am so glad, I was really tired. So tired that I actually fell asleep at a traffic light on the way to work yesterday morning, which was pretty unnerving. Now I'm rested and about to play the Sims 2, and relax for a bit. Later Chuck's mom and I are going to go out to eat and see a movie. I haven't told any of them that I'm planning to move back to Texas in a year. I think I'm going to tell her today while we are eating. It just seems like the right thing to do, really. I already checked out the licensing requirements for massage therapy in Texas, and they are the same as here. All I have to do is save up money over the next year so that the transition of finding a place to live and continuing to pay bills as I get started in a new job will be an easier one than it would be if it were not well planned. Oh well, off to play Sims!

Back from RT

2007-05-06T00:03:44Z

Actually, I've been back for about a week, at least in the physical sense. It's taking my mind a bit longer to catch up with the rest of me. RT was so much fun, lots of laughs, and it was wonderful to see everyone again. It always goes by so fast! Before I left, I was planning to take notes so that I would remember all the interesting details, but somehow I didn't get around to it. Too busy living it to stop and analyze, I guess, but that's ok. I was in a weird sort of mood all that week anyway, though. It was a good mood, but kind of quiet and dreamy at the same time. I don't think I talked much, but I was having fun listening and just being with my friends. Now I can't wait till next year, to do it again!

Is it really so long since I've posted here???

2007-03-22T20:26:44Z

Time seriously flies, I can't believe it was over a year ago that I was last here. So much has changed in that amount of time, I've got a new massage job, at Massage Envy. It's so much better than the old job, they treat the therapists better, and they pay us on time too! What more could I ask? Things have changed at the gas station since then, Steve (who did not, in fact, obey my warnings that day) is long gone, both from the job and unfortunately from this world. I wasn't fond of the guy, but I wouldn't have wished harm to him. My friend Missy is not the manager there, my other friend Gretchen has been the manager for about a year now. She does a great job, as does our assistant manager Jessi. They are a lot of fun to work with, funny though that when I last posted here, I'd never met either of them, and now it feels like I've known them forever. I went to RT in Daytona last year, and also to Evan and Tamara's wedding in Cocoa Beach, and now I'm getting ready for RT in Houston. It's fun and exciting to plan for the trip, however, I do think I will relax a bit more when I know for sure that I have all the money together and that nothing is going to go wrong. It will be fine, I worry every year, and it's always ok. Katilian, if you are reading this, thank you and Will very very much for my late Christmas/early birthday gifts! I love the cd, was listening to it in the car, and I will try the game later on today. I am going to try to call you later in the afternoon when I think you are home. Hopefully I'll get in touch with you. Well, that's all for now, I am thinking, I'll probably have more to say when I go to RT, all the interesting stuff happens there.

Mental Notes

2006-03-22T11:40:56Z

To Self:

Dear Me,
I think that you have a lot to do today, things you wanted to get done between work and work. I'm a little foggy on what the exact nature of those things might be, but whatever they are, do please get them done, would you? They are probably important.
Love,
Me

To Steve The Coworker From Hell

Dear Steve,
I am going to be working with you today. The key word here being "with"...I probably will not have much patience today, for a number of reasons, so if you try to abandon me to work by myself like you did to Missy yesterday, or if you whine, complain, curse, or are abusive in any way, I shall probably stuff you into the garbage can. Or better yet, I shall stuff you into a box and mail you somewhere, with a label that reads "Defective--please send one that works" Just thought you ought to know.
No Love,
Me

To The Universe

Dear Universe,
I would like to have a good day today, if that's all right with you. I didn't have one yesterday really, so I don't think I would really be overdoing it to have one today, you know? Don't tell me I'm doing this for me, it's supposed to be a surprise...no particular reason, I just thought I'd enjoy it. Thank you in advance for considering my request, and you have a nice day too.
Sincerely,
Me

To Self Again

Dear Me,

Go to work. You're late.
Love,
Me

I guess this one wasn't entirely bad as days off go, but...

2006-03-22T02:09:38Z

bleh...I'm in a better mood than I have been at most of the noticeable points of the day, due to the fact that I just ordered my massage chair online for RT. The day started off fairly promising, or so I thought, I was awakened by my cell phone beeping because Missy was texting me to ask if I was coming up to see her at work. I said I was, and took a shower and got ready to go. It had been supposed to snow, a lot, they were expecting six to eight inches, no one was looking forward to going anywhere, etc. When I went outside, however, although it had snowed, it had not come anywhere near what had been predicted. The air outside was almost warm, and although there was some snow on the ground, it had already begun to melt, and the few snowflakes that remained in the air floated around with the sort of studied nonchalance that one might notice in a student who has found that he has entered the wrong classroom by mistake and is trying to look as though he belongs there. When I got there, I found out that Steve the coworker from hell had left her there by herself, because he said he didn't feel good, had stomach cramps or something. I stayed around and helped her out a bit, but I ended up leaving because Chuck was being grumpy at me for going up there, when he was off work too, and he had wanted to go to the movies. He hadn't told me that, and since the decision to not go in to work was made in the wee hours of the morning, when I was sleeping, and my plans for everything else I was doing today had been made days before...well, you get the idea. Actually when I went up there this morning, I had been planning on coming back and doing something with him, after all, why not, we were both off work. But he was already pissed off, and nothing but nothing was going to deprive him of his little snit. Fine, who cares anyway. I tried to make things right, and was being as reasonable as a person can be who is confronted with being told that nothing she does is right, I didn't even get mad or upset, except afterwards and I didn't say anything about that. The only thing I'm really annoyed with is that 1. he didn't mention wanting to do anything till I had already told Missy I would come up there. 2. I said I would get back quickly and he told me not to bother, and he didn't do anything to make me think he still wanted to go. 3. while I was up there, he called me just to tell me that since I wasn't there to go to the movies, he wasn't going to get to go, and he wouldn't be there when I got back. (starting arguments is something he obviously enjoys) 4. he wouldn't listen when I tried to explain why I was still there, and called me a liar because of well...I can't really remember, it's all kind of mixed up, but he did call me one anyway. 5. He hung up on me twice. I hate that. 6. When I got home, he wouldn't allow me to make peace in any way. and 7. to the best of my knowledge he is still sulking. ...ok, so there wasn't an ONLY thing that was bothering me, but still, I think I have a right to be kind of pissed off now too. Everytime I think maybe it would be possible to work out a relationship of sorts with him, because he has spent a certain amount of time acting human, he always does something to remind me why I think it's pretty much impossible. I am never getting into another relationship again. I promise me that. In the meantime, I've managed to find some peace and enjoyment in talking to Lysa and Aimy, and playing around with Gaia...and ordering my massage chair. It's hard to feel loved on a day like this sometimes, but it helps having friends (and sisters) to talk to. If there was anything else I was going to say, I don't remember it, so I'll make this the end of my little rant, and move on to the next thing. whatever that is.

Days off are a good thing

2006-03-15T03:17:10Z

I really enjoyed today...I slept in longer than I thought I was going to, but that was probably good, I'm sure the sleep was just what I needed anyway. Then I was not feeling particularly motivated, so it was almost 11:00 when I finally left the house to run errands, needless to say, only one errand actually got done. Fortunately it was the important one, which was mailing Mom's birthday present. The really good thing is that it is going to arrive on the actual day of her birthday. I tend to be late about a lot of things, so this was a real accomplishment. About the time I arrived at the post office, I started getting calls and text messages...first a call from Chuck because I had forgotten we were going to eat lunch, then when I was trying to call him back, I got a text message from Missy because she had expected me to show up earlier because I said I would stop by work and talk to her for a while, and I was supposed to go and see her new apartment too. So since Chuck wasn't answering his phone, when I tried to call him back, I started to text back to Missy, and right before I sent the message, Chuck called back, so I started to answer the phone, and then Missy text messaged me again...I actually sort of screamed...well, it was more a squeak of frustration. We finally got it all straightened out though. It was almost 8:00 before I got home though, and got online. I almost missed an im from Emmanuel, but he was still online when I got here, then he disappeared on me...Now I'm tired. I don't think I want to go to work tomorrow, but I have a feeling I'm going to go anyway. Not that I really had a choice in the matter. Poor Bandit, he was outside and I forgot about him, well, I wasn't the one who let him out, but still...he should of barked or something, at least that would have got my attention. Bleh..I think it's time for me to get some sleep.

I should be asleep

2006-03-13T03:37:31Z

...but I never do what I'm supposed to do, anyway, so it doesn't matter really. I actually didn't end up getting the alignment for the tires, I showed up, but it was going to take too long so I would not make it to Earth City for the onsite on time, so I rescheduled. Called Katie like I said I would, things are not going well. I hope to do better at keeping in touch, at least through livejournal, if not by phone, but I'm planning on being a better phone correspondent than I have been...work is crazy busy, non-stop most of the time. I'm wishing for a break, at least for a slow night once or twice, but so far it hasn't happened. I'm getting really hyped about RT, because it is getting closer to time. I have all the registration and hotel room reserving done, and am currently saving up for the massage chair I want to get. I wish I could remember half of the things I always think I'm going to say once I get here, but by the time I get anywhere near a computer, my mind is blank already because I'm tired. Maybe when I am back here on Tuesday (day off) then I'll have more to say.

caer_sidi @ 2006-03-12T21:18:00

2006-03-13T03:13:52Z

You scored as Moya (Farscape). You are surrounded by muppets. But that is okay because they are your friends and have shown many times that they can be trusted. Now if only you could stop being bothered about wormholes.

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Moya (Farscape)

100%

Deep Space Nine (Star Trek)

100%

Nebuchadnezzar (The Matrix)

100%

Serenity (Firefly)

100%

SG-1 (Stargate)

100%

Babylon 5 (Babylon 5)

88%

Bebop (Cowboy Bebop)

75%

Millennium Falcon (Star Wars)

75%

FBI's X-Files Division (The X-Files)

75%

Galactica (Battlestar: Galactica)

75%

Enterprise D (Star Trek)

75%

Andromeda Ascendant (Andromeda)

50%

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Ever have one of those days where things just don't seem to do what they are supposed to?

2006-03-07T23:52:52Z

Well, not all of it has been bad, I got a letter from my mom last night, which made me very happy, and I actually did get my cell phone bill paid, and get two new front tires for my car, alignment to be performed at 3:00 this Thursday, barring incident. There had better be no incident. That means that Steve the coworker from hell cannot weasel his way into getting out of work first, otherwise I will never make it. Then I have to hope it is done quickly, because I forgot that I had volunteered to be Muriel's replacement at the ABF onsite from 4 to 6, and it's a pretty long drive from House Springs to Earth City where the onsite is. Anyway, after getting the tires done, I came home to settle in an relax and enjoy the rest of my day off, and right when I pulled into the driveway, I remembered that I had agreed to go to the Butler Hill gas station, where Missy's mom works, and get Chuck one of the prepaid cell phone cards, and that I was supposed to get toilet paper, and also stop at the library and get some extra tax forms so that I could have a copy of my taxes before I sent them off. So when I got home (a couple of hours later) I tried to make a new layout page for my profile on myspace...it didn't work. I don't know why, but I couldn't view all of the screen. It's probably something really stupid that anyone else would have thought of or already knew how to fix easily, but *shrugs* I just don't know, I'm completely lost. So I got on gaia, and now not only is my avatar messed up (still), but also everything is shut down. So I decided to join Lysa and Aimy in playing runescape, and the comp won't let me install the missing plugins. I'm going to try to call my sister tonight. I hope my cell phone works.

Going to the store

2006-02-23T23:04:57Z

eh...that wasn't going to be the original subject line, but since it's what I'm about to do, then...well...yeah. Ok, well, things did get somewhat better, not laid off work, in the process of getting the insurance thing done, got all the pay from paychecks and also got paid for my last onsite. (which was before christmas, at the very closest, might have been even longer)

in other news I have the afternoon off. still planning for RT, and I'm tired. Oh well, got to go...

Take a deep breath, everything is going to be ok....

2006-02-19T15:12:58Z

It will, it really will...and I'll keep telling myself that. Well, I finally got registered for RT, and got the room reserved, and it is going to be a suite, as promised, so that much is accomplished. I also have to hurry up and get my malpractice insurance for work at the galleria because if it isn't in by monday at 2:00 then the therapists who don't have it are laid off till they do. Not that I haven't been trying to get the insurance, because I always intended to do it, but as with everything, it costs money. $99.00 to be exact. When they first sent us the letter, my paycheck needed to go for my car payment, so I couldn't do it then. Now I have the money, but first when I tried to fax the form after I had filled it out, then it turned out that our fax machine won't send things long distance, so I had to wait till the next day and try to fax it at the bank. The next day being a Saturday, the banks close at noon, so since there wasn't enough time for me to leave and go there from work, then I sent it with Missy when she went to do the deposit, and then they were so busy when she went and it was so close to closing time that she didn't ask them to fax it after all, so I still have to wait till Monday to even send it out. Paychecks were a day late, so I didn't get to deposit my paycheck yet, and then when I got it and opened it, I found out that the new lady who is in charge of doing the payroll had messed it up really bad, I got shorted about 20 hours or more. I was PISSED...still am. Everyone's check was messed up, not just mine, I'm pretty sure they will fix the mistake, but when is another question. The only reason that there is a new person doing the payroll is because the lady who used to do it, Jessica quit. The reason she quit? Because the boss cut her hours so that he could give himself a raise. There were probably other reasons for quitting too, that I don't know about, but I do know that one. What makes that even worse is that she is his stepdaughter, so if he would do that to family, then how are his employees supposed to expect fair treatment? And where does he get the idea that it is ok to say everyone has to have that insurance that costs $99 within three days, and two of those days are Saturday and Sunday, when you can't get anything done anyway, and if they don't, then they are laid off, which means it would be even harder to get money, and then make the paychecks a day late and a whole week short? I can see my mood is going to suck for the rest of the day. I can't wait for RT, so that I can get a break from all of this. *sigh* with my luck, I'll come back to find out that there isn't a company anymore. At least I have my license, and I'll have (damned expensive) insurance, so I can go and work anywhere, but what really sucks is that I LIKE this job. I love the people I work with, and my customers, and I even like being in the mall. I hope things settle down, but I should probably have been expecting this, because the company seems to go in cycles, up for a while, and down for a while. We've had a nice long "up" period, I guess we were about due for a "down" one. But the timing sucks, as usual.

Sometimes I wish there was a "pause" button for life

2006-02-12T15:39:26Z

Everything is moving so quickly, and I'm not sure if I'm keeping up. I have to get ready for work now, and it seems like I just got back from there, well, I did, last night, but I was so wiped out that I went straight to bed and was unconscious the moment I hit the pillow and didn't wake up till the alarm went off, and then got a shower and got on here as fast as I could, but there were over 700 emails since I hadn't been on since Wed night. *sigh* It is snowing though, I love snow. I hate the cold, but I love snow. How's that for an anomaly? Or whatever. Anyway, if I don't start getting ready now then I'm going to be late, and I"m the one who has to open, so I had better get moving. I can't wait for RT, because then I'll get a break.